𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗚𝗼𝗱, 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗔𝗥𝗘 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲.
Looking at where I once was and how I felt about a lot of things is really humbling. I have had my share of wanting to fit in growing up with people who had VERY nice “things” and designer clothes/cars/everything. When I got into my teens and younger adult life, I put these things on a pedestal and felt unworthy if I didn’t have them or couldn’t “keep up”. It’s no surprise then, that same self confidence (or lack of) carried through into my adult years.
Sure, you can SAY “those things are just things” but if deep down or even subconsciously you feel unworthy or never enough, it still brings toxicity.
Sometimes we truly do think we are “over” something or healed or accept ourselves but then another healing moment or change happens and God works in us, and you think 𝗪𝗢𝗪, 𝗼𝗸… 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁’𝘀 even 𝗯𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿! I feel that much clearer and lighter than before!
When we moved from our 3,000+ square foot home to this “tiny little trailer”, I said I was excited and we knew clearly and with vision, on WHY we chose to. It 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯’𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦. It was our desire to have certain things and save for others and give our kids a very specific childhood and experiences. We heard it all… we were very aware of how “crazy” it looked to others to leave a “big, nice house” and live in a trailer. (By the way, that’s not a diss on my friends or anyone who has lived in a trailer their whole life… this is just my story and how this fits in… and if we are honest, as a society, we wrap up identities and make major judgements on others based on these things! It is a sad reality in our culture.)
Over the last year, not only have I healed a lot of physical ailments, but much much much on the inside! And one of the things I’ve loved growing in, is my own confidence and pride in my choices, boundaries, disciplines, dreams…!
𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙖𝙨 “𝙪𝙣𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙝𝙮” 𝙤𝙧 “𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝” 𝙤𝙧 “𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚” 𝙤𝙧 “𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙣𝙤 𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙚”, 𝙬𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙬 𝙫𝙖𝙡𝙪𝙚, 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚, 𝙥𝙪𝙧𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚, 𝙟𝙤𝙮, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚.
How cool this picture was to take the other day of Tim finishing up some siding on our HOME (for now) so the cold air wouldn’t be so brutal (it wasn’t) using free fencing that I had gotten months ago! It wasn’t that we couldn’t buy some other material… but we have those goals and desires mentioned above that drive us to get creative, save for other endeavors, and learn and craft skills in the process!! I really am so proud of that! Of this…! Of our family, my husband, my amazing kids who love their surroundings and family to share it with… I’m proud of what we are building and what it’s for.
Friends, I always say this… but my hope and desire for you is that you too, will 𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗽 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗳𝗼𝗿𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝘅𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝗚𝗼𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗱! There is such freedom and healing and joy when you do so! You will make mistakes and evolve and go back 23 steps and forward 4… you will feel frustrated, off balance, unsure… but that’s when you give it to God and keep going! Love and live fearlessly (or at least start walking towards that) and watch your life blossom!
I hope you are having a wonderful Sunday! Here’s to a great week (and for us Texans… some sunshine)!!! Hooray!