๐ช๐ถ๐๐ต ๐๐ผ๐ฑ, ๐ฎ๐น๐น ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ฝ๐ผ๐๐๐ถ๐ฏ๐น๐ฒ. โฃ
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Looking at where I once was and how I felt about a lot of things is really humbling. I have had my share of wanting to fit in growing up with people who had VERY nice โthingsโ and designer clothes/cars/everything. When I got into my teens and younger adult life, I put these things on a pedestal and felt unworthy if I didnโt have them or couldnโt โkeep upโ. Itโs no surprise then, that same self confidence (or lack of) carried through into my adult years. โฃ
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Sure, you can SAY โthose things are just thingsโ but if deep down or even subconsciously you feel unworthy or never enough, it still brings toxicity. โฃ
Sometimes we truly do think we are โoverโ something or healed or accept ourselves but then another healing moment or change happens and God works in us, and you think ๐ช๐ข๐ช, ๐ผ๐ธ… ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐โ๐ even ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฟ! I feel that much clearer and lighter than before! โฃ
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When we moved from our 3,000+ square foot home to this โtiny little trailerโ, I said I was excited and we knew clearly and with vision, on WHY we chose to. โฃIt ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ง๐ข๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ด๐ฆ. It was our desire to have certain things and save for others and give our kids a very specific childhood and experiences. We heard it all… we were very aware of how โcrazyโ it looked to others to leave a โbig, nice houseโ and live in a trailer. (By the way, thatโs not a diss on my friends or anyone who has lived in a trailer their whole life… this is just my story and how this fits in… and if we are honest, as a society, we wrap up identities and make major judgements on others based on these things! It is a sad reality in our culture.) โฃ
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Over the last year, not only have I healed a lot of physical ailments, but much much much on the inside! And one of the things Iโve loved growing in, is my own confidence and pride in my choices, boundaries, disciplines, dreams…! โฃ
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๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ง๐จ ๐ข๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐จ๐๐๐ฃ ๐๐จ โ๐ช๐ฃ๐ฌ๐ค๐ง๐ฉ๐๐ฎโ ๐ค๐ง โ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฉ ๐๐ฃ๐ค๐ช๐๐โ ๐ค๐ง โ๐จ๐ฉ๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐โ ๐ค๐ง โ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ฃ๐ค ๐จ๐๐ฃ๐จ๐โ, ๐ฌ๐ ๐จ๐๐ฌ ๐ซ๐๐ก๐ช๐, ๐ก๐๐๐, ๐ฅ๐ช๐ง๐ฅ๐ค๐จ๐, ๐๐ค๐ฎ, ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ค๐ฅ๐. โฃ
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How cool this picture was to take the other day of Tim finishing up some siding on our HOME (for now) so the cold air wouldnโt be so brutal (it wasnโt) using free fencing that I had gotten months ago! โฃIt wasnโt that we couldnโt buy some other material… but we have those goals and desires mentioned above that drive us to get creative, save for other endeavors, and learn and craft skills in the process!! I really am so proud of that! Of this…! Of our family, my husband, my amazing kids who love their surroundings and family to share it with… Iโm proud of what we are building and what itโs for. โฃ
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Friends, I always say this… but my hope and desire for you is that you too, will ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฝ ๐ผ๐๐ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐ฏ๐ผ๐
๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ณ ๐ถ๐ป ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ผ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฎ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ถ๐บ๐ฎ๐ด๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฑ! There is such freedom and healing and joy when you do so! You will make mistakes and evolve and go back 23 steps and forward 4… you will feel frustrated, off balance, unsure… but thatโs when you give it to God and keep going! Love and live fearlessly (or at least start walking towards that) and watch your life blossom! โฃ
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I hope you are having a wonderful Sunday! Hereโs to a great week (and for us Texans… some sunshine)!!! Hooray! โฃ
LOVE YโALL!!!โฃ
