How Downsizing Helped Me Heal: A Year In Review

๐—ช๐—ถ๐˜๐—ต ๐—š๐—ผ๐—ฑ, ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด๐˜€ ๐—”๐—ฅ๐—˜ ๐—ฝ๐—ผ๐˜€๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ฏ๐—น๐—ฒ. โฃ
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Looking at where I once was and how I felt about a lot of things is really humbling. I have had my share of wanting to fit in growing up with people who had VERY nice โ€œthingsโ€ and designer clothes/cars/everything. When I got into my teens and younger adult life, I put these things on a pedestal and felt unworthy if I didnโ€™t have them or couldnโ€™t โ€œkeep upโ€. Itโ€™s no surprise then, that same self confidence (or lack of) carried through into my adult years. โฃ
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Sure, you can SAY โ€œthose things are just thingsโ€ but if deep down or even subconsciously you feel unworthy or never enough, it still brings toxicity. โฃ
Sometimes we truly do think we are โ€œoverโ€ something or healed or accept ourselves but then another healing moment or change happens and God works in us, and you think ๐—ช๐—ข๐—ช, ๐—ผ๐—ธ… ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜โ€™๐˜€ even ๐—ฏ๐—ฒ๐˜๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ! I feel that much clearer and lighter than before! โฃ
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When we moved from our 3,000+ square foot home to this โ€œtiny little trailerโ€, I said I was excited and we knew clearly and with vision, on WHY we chose to. โฃIt ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ. It was our desire to have certain things and save for others and give our kids a very specific childhood and experiences. We heard it all… we were very aware of how โ€œcrazyโ€ it looked to others to leave a โ€œbig, nice houseโ€ and live in a trailer. (By the way, thatโ€™s not a diss on my friends or anyone who has lived in a trailer their whole life… this is just my story and how this fits in… and if we are honest, as a society, we wrap up identities and make major judgements on others based on these things! It is a sad reality in our culture.) โฃ
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Over the last year, not only have I healed a lot of physical ailments, but much much much on the inside! And one of the things Iโ€™ve loved growing in, is my own confidence and pride in my choices, boundaries, disciplines, dreams…! โฃ
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๐™’๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™๐™š๐™ง๐™จ ๐™ข๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š ๐™จ๐™š๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™–๐™จ โ€œ๐™ช๐™ฃ๐™ฌ๐™ค๐™ง๐™ฉ๐™๐™ฎโ€ ๐™ค๐™ง โ€œ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ช๐™œ๐™โ€ ๐™ค๐™ง โ€œ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ง๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™šโ€ ๐™ค๐™ง โ€œ๐™ข๐™–๐™™๐™š ๐™ฃ๐™ค ๐™จ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™šโ€, ๐™ฌ๐™š ๐™จ๐™–๐™ฌ ๐™ซ๐™–๐™ก๐™ช๐™š, ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™š, ๐™ฅ๐™ช๐™ง๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š, ๐™Ÿ๐™ค๐™ฎ, ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™š. โฃ
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How cool this picture was to take the other day of Tim finishing up some siding on our HOME (for now) so the cold air wouldnโ€™t be so brutal (it wasnโ€™t) using free fencing that I had gotten months ago! โฃIt wasnโ€™t that we couldnโ€™t buy some other material… but we have those goals and desires mentioned above that drive us to get creative, save for other endeavors, and learn and craft skills in the process!! I really am so proud of that! Of this…! Of our family, my husband, my amazing kids who love their surroundings and family to share it with… Iโ€™m proud of what we are building and what itโ€™s for. โฃ
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Friends, I always say this… but my hope and desire for you is that you too, will ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฝ ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐˜๐˜€ ๐—ผ๐—ฟ ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜…๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฝ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ณ ๐—ถ๐—ป ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น๐—ผ๐˜„ ๐—š๐—ผ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ธ๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฝ๐—น๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ถ๐—บ๐—ฎ๐—ด๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฑ! There is such freedom and healing and joy when you do so! You will make mistakes and evolve and go back 23 steps and forward 4… you will feel frustrated, off balance, unsure… but thatโ€™s when you give it to God and keep going! Love and live fearlessly (or at least start walking towards that) and watch your life blossom! โฃ
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I hope you are having a wonderful Sunday! Hereโ€™s to a great week (and for us Texans… some sunshine)!!! Hooray! โฃ

LOVE Yโ€™ALL!!!โฃ

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